Yay! Good News!

Jeremy called me this morning to tell me he was loaded and headed for Utah!  I was so happy.  It has been almost 2 weeks and I'm so excited to see him.  Its has been way too long and being apart for this long sucks!  I don't know how girls wait for guys on military leave or those waiting for missionaries.  I couldn't do it!  This was so fucking hard!  But now he is on his way he'll be in 2 days and I'm ecstatic.  I get to meet our new puppy too.  While Jeremy was in Phoenix last week he went and got me a puppy.  We named her Brindle (Brin for short), she is 10 weeks old and is a chihuahua/fox terrier mix.  She is tiny and brindled and kinda looks like a teeny tiny pitbull.  I haven't met her yet just have received a bunch of pictures and videos that Jer has sent me in the last week.  I have already gone out and bought her a bunch of stuff to spoil her toys and treats and other things.  We were so sad to have to give away our other dog Daisy, but she was just too big for our new living quarters.  But Jeremy and I love dogs so we decided to go and get a little dog for us, and when we settle down in a house we'll get a big dog (Jeremy loves big dogs). 

For the next 2 days I'll be doing laundry, packing up our belongings, getting a few items  we need on the truck, going to see my family for a little bit and getting more and more excited as the time passes.  This is the home stretch and I'm so grateful that its almost over.  As most people know Jeremy and I are not married, although I do believe our lives do resemble a married couple.  I think sometimes people think that because we aren't married that we don't share that bond like other couples do.  That our love isn't as strong or that our lives aren't connected as strongly as those who are married.  But in fact we do love each other very much and we do share a very special bond.  We are each others best friends, and we know secrets about each other only few know.  We share things that are very personal and we miss each other very much when we are apart.  I believe marriage is the cards for us at some point but it just isn't the right time for that.  Children are also in the cards as well but we need time with each other before we have kids.  We have our whole lives to have kids.  Right now we are having an adventure, seeing new places, meeting new people, visiting our families, and sharing memories and time with each other, and that's good enough for me.

In Cache Valley and Missing Jeremy

Jeremy and I have been apart from each other for almost 2 weeks now and I miss him so much.  It has been lovely being back in Cache Valley and visiting family and friends and catching up with loved ones, but my love is a thousand miles away and I ache for him.  You really don't know how much you love someone until you can't see them everyday.  I miss being in his arms and lying with him at night listening to him breathe.  My bed has been so empty for this last while.   I never thought I would be in love like this or be with someone who treated me so well and loved me so deeply.  He is my best friend and my other half.  I look forward to his phone calls everyday and enjoy every bit of them and its so hard to say goodbye and hang up even after hours on the phone.  His loads have taken him further away than I expected and away from each other much longer than we expected.  He was supposed to be here a week after I left him and it just hasn't worked out yet.  I'm so ready to be home with him.

For some good news I went on vacation with my family to the cabin in Island Park.  It was so great to see them all and spend time with them.  We spent time in the park and with each other.  The girls are growing up so much and have their own personalities that can be chaotic and incredibly fun.  After we came back from the vacation I spent a couple days with Kevin and Sheena Munro.  Great people and great friends of mine.  We have caught up and gone back into our usual routine of Pizza Hut visits, dinners at their house late at night, and long conversations.  They have been great friends with a lot great advice and never allowing me to feel sorry for myself or make excuses for myself.  I also saw Nicole Simpson, one of my best friends from my childhood who has always made me feel comfortable with myself when others haven't.  She is so funny and we always have an incredible time together.  Even since we were in high school, some of my best memories from high school were with Nicole.  We went and had drinks and met a creepy old man.  And Grandma and Grandpa just came home for a few days and I went to dinner and caught up with them. 

All in all it has been a great little while here in Cache Valley but now I'm ready to go home and home is with Jeremy!  I'm more than ready to see him, hug him and kiss him!!