Some stuff in my World

My life has become a little bit complicated lately.  There was an opening in the Medical Assisting Program and I couldn't afford the beginning fees and so I got bumped down the list again.  If the financial aid ladies had gotten my FAFSA stuff done 3 months ago it would have been less of a problem but whatever.  Still taking my online class and kicking ass in it.  I have a meeting tomorrow with the Vice President of the BATC tomorrow and hopefully there will be good news later. 

Still no job and it's getting very stressful but I do have good feeling that one is coming.  I sure as hell hope so.  But when I get a job and school actually starts it's all gonna get crazy in a big hurry.  I can handle it though so bring it on!!

For those of you who don't know, cause I don't really post stuff about this but I've gone back to church.  I needed some kind of peace in my life.  I'm still me just with a little more direction and more comfort in life.  It's been a good thing for me.  I've found some strength that I didn't know that I could have in my life and I'm really enjoying it for me.  I feel like I've found a balance between who I am and who I want to be.  I did this for me, because I really felt like it was the best thing for me to be doing and I needed something more in my life for myself.  I've been really happy with my decision.  I know I have friends out there that are not a fan of this; and this is what I have to say to that.  This decision was for me and me alone.  I feel that is the best thing for me to be doing in my life.  I still love you for who you are and I promise not to try and change you.  I'm still me and haven't changed.  If you are really my friends then you'll accept this decision and love me for who I choose to be and I'll do the same for you.  




My best friend Brady Bodily is coming home in the next few weeks and I'm sooo excited.  It'll be nice to have him around again and hang with him and not have to worry that he will be hurt while in the field.  I know it'll be tough for him when he comes back but there are many who love him and care for him so it'll be great.  I told him today that normalcy will be a good thing for him for a little bit. Please everyone pray that he'll get home safely, these next few weeks I'll freak out and worry a little extra.

I also want to thank some special people in my life... Brenna Clarke and Joni Severe for being the best visiting teachers and friends I could ask for.  Trisha Hall, Alyssa Ross, Joshlyn Carmona, Jill Stapely for being friendly faces and comforting and open arms for me the last few weeks.  Your friendships to me have meant so much to me.  Thank you to the Smithfield YSA 1st ward for helping so much through the last 2 months.  It has been a comfort to call you all friends and my ward family.  And a special thanks to Andrew Weber... ;) you're amazing!!  I'm a better person for knowing all of you!!  :D

September.. the beginning of something great..

So... first off, last week I knew that Rascal Flatts was coming to concert to USANA in SLC and I wanted tickets more than anything.  They are my favorite group/artist of all time and have always wanted to see them.  So, I had been trying to win tickets through the radio stations and had been calling multiple times every hour for a week.  Then, Thursday afternoon my best friend Brady who is serving overseas called me and told me he had bought me two tickets to go.  I thought he was kidding and when he said he wasn't I started screaming and dancing and jumping up and down.  I was more excited than I've ever been ever.  I called my other bestie Ashley and told her she was coming with me and needed to get work off.  The next night we were at USANA watching Justin Moore (which Ash did NOT prefer, she called him Justin Nomoore lol), Sara Evans (amazing!!) and Rascal Flatts (sooooo awesome can barely contain myself days later).  It was a crazy night of singing, screaming, dancing, and laughing.  We had great seats and though the weather taunted us the first hour even raining a bit before the first act started, it all cleared up and we had an incredible time.  We met some seriously crazy but fun people and had a creeper standing behind for the majority of the time.  But all in all it couldn't have been better.  Thank you Brady for the tickets and Ashley for the memories.  

Next, I found out this morning that I could possibly get into my program starting Oct 3 and if I work hard and quick I could be done by June and working as a Medical Assistant next summer.  I'm thrilled.  I hope all my interviews and financial aid and paperwork all go alright.  I'll know more on Thursday but seriously I'm so excited to get started and start learning.  

Then, I met this guy a few weeks ago, he lives in Washington and his name is Andrew.  He is really great.  He's so nice and funny and he makes me laugh.  I have been txting him almost nonstop for like 2 weeks. He has this way of making me light up and I haven't done that in forever.  Now, it's long distance and I don't know how it is going to work out or even if it will yet, but I know that I haven't been this happy and giddy in a long time; so it's a worth a shot.  I'm just glad that I have someone who thinks good things of me and who is (even from another state) pushing me to strive harder and be better.  

I thought for a while that things were never gonna look up and that I would stay in this never never land of misery, but I'm good.  I'm better than I was.  I've got goals and people who care if I have goals and if I achieve those goals.  That's nice to know.  I've got a bright future ahead of me and people who care and love me.  What more could I ask for??