Sunday, July 24, 2011
Feeling a little better.
Today is the first day that I actually feel better. I feel "a little bit stronger". The morning was still difficult but the rest of this day has been a little better. I haven't cried and I haven't thought much of him today. It has been good. Last night was hard though. I was cleaning my room and seemed to find more and more of his stuff of Jeremy's. Every time I found something I started crying. I never go on Jeremy's side of the bed... or I guess the other side of the bed and he had a left a can of soda that he was drinking the last night that he was here. It took everything in my being to throw it away and stop bawling. And I found his doo rag and it made me start bawling all over again. It was absolutely one of his trade marks. It's was tough but I did it. I cleaned the room out of all of his stuff in such a rage I didn't do such a good job and finding his things was difficult. But today has been a good day. It has been a pleasant day. The first day in 2 weeks that I feel good. I'm trying to keep this momentum and keep my spirits high. I miss him, and I love him but I am better off without him. Maybe I'm starting to understand and realize that.
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